The path.
The path I walk seems to be blurred
Every step I make makes my feet hurt

The path I walk is outstretched and long
The hands that I reach for are long gone

I can't see where I'm going
All I see is mist

It makes me wonder
Do I even exist?

 Naieve.
Everyone has left and I'm still here
Once again I'm last
Lingering, holding on to the past
I can't seem to let it go

Crawling into the ground
Never to be found
Leave me here

Wrestling with the grief
I know I am just naieve

Change.
When life suddenly changes
My soul cries
The real me, she smiles
The real feeling she hides

Don't leave me alone with my fears
I don't know what I'm capable of
Death can seem so great
While life only has tears

Ecstasy, living in my own dream
I want to escape in my fantasy
But back to reality I'll scream
Cause I just don't want to be me

But still when I long to a different life
while struggling with these pains
Still I'm very afraid
For that life-changing change

The book.
Rereading my chapter once more
Longing to rewrite it again
Every question there's an anwser for
But all I get is stains from my pen

Many to go, waiting for the last
Urging to make it happen fast
Knowing many pages will not be well spend
I'm still here, waiting for my happy end

I Just Wish
As you are building a wall,
I observe you
It is getting higher as I come near
And no way I'm getting through
You are filled with fear

You don't have to be afraid at all
You will always be perfect in my eyes
Don't be afraid to fall
And do not leave me with the why's

Maybe I'm just blind
To the words i want to hear spoken?
Maybe others do know
And I sit silently broken

Is it something I need to know?
Or is it not for my ears?
Maybe just because I love you so
And deep within I don't want to hear

Maybe you would have told me by now,
Just if I had asked?
But I don't know what the question is
The lies, the pain, the mask?

I just wish you could be happy
I just wish we could be happy
I just wish it wasn't this complicated
I just wish...